BUSTOOOOOOOOOOO......

i've read that many successful players have gone broke several times before making it.

the first coupla yrs i played, i reloaded my accts constantly. that was until last year, which was a breakout year for me. i made several nice MTT cashes live and online. my cash game even reappeared strong toward the end of '06.

then, several things happened. i won't go off on a tangent listing them. basically, i withdrew a lot of money from my accts and Neteller for some "special" purchases. shortly after that, i became, "self employed" and i decided to give poker a go. but, i started at somewhat of a disadvantage. over 75% of my BR had been withdrawn.

my first 2 months were terrible. i got off to a horrible start trying to cash in on the Superbowl weekend frenzy. instead of doubling or tripling my BR, i got thoroughly worked. i went cold and really dug deep wondering if i could make it.

when March rolled around, i went on a tear , cashing over $5k in a little over a week's time. a very good month. my confidence was restored.

then here comes April, i resurrect my cash game and clean up in the 1st few sessions. playing like a nut peddling nit. then, the ass end of variance hit me. i dropped five (5) buy-ins at 2/4. moved down to 1/2 and dropped another (5) buy-ins.

so, i went back to playing MTT's and sng's. my bread and butter. i've gone 2 months now without any major MTT cashes. nothing over $1k.

running bad again.

early last week, i pulled out money to pay some bills and left only $200 in my Stars and FTP acct figuring i had a month to build it back up. i also had over $700 in Bodog. so, my thinking was just grind it out running sng's, satellites and MTT's thru June.

i set myself up for failure.

you can't expect to make $3-$4k a month with only a little over $1k in ur online bankroll. at least, i couldn't. i ran my Stars and FTP accts down to zero. but, still had $700 in Bodog.

i still had some money in my checking and a lot of $$$ in my money market. but, i've been trying to stay away from the $$$ in my money market. so, i have a cushion in case something bad happens.

when we got back from Cleveland Tuesday night, i tried to reload my FTP acct using my ATM/Check card. no luck. then, i tried to do the same on Stars. no luck there either. so i decided to use epassporte to load my accts. no go.

WTF ?? i've never had a problem loading any of those accts using my ATM/Check card before.

thank u Mr. Friske.

luckily i still have money on Bodog. i started thinking about Chris Ferguson's attempt to turn zero into $10k.

i have a TON of FPP's on FTP. so, i decided to play sum 1200 fpp single table turbo super sats into the $50+5 400k Satellite. i won two (2) seats yesterday. so, i have a chance to satellite into the 400k on Sunday. i also got $55 deposited into my acct for the 2nd seat. i played a bunch more. got HU a few times. but, couldn't close the deal.

today, I played a $6.50 token frenzy and won it. then, played a tier 2 single table turbo. when we got down to 3-handed, i purposely donked out in 3rd for the $66 payout.

this guy should take notes cuz, this is how u can build a BR from nothing.

i have $116 in FTP now and i'm off to grind some low stakes sng's on FTP. hopefully, i can get lucky on Sunday and win my seat into the 400k. i'm still playing the MTT's on Bodog that have a good overlay.

it's been a humbling experience. hopefully, something good will happen soon.

GL at the tables this weekend!